I'm Back! Let's Hope It's a Good Thing...

Hey!

It's been quite a long time (for me) since I've wrote out some actual form of content for you guys! I mean, my last post was exactly a month and a day ago, but it was more of a "bye for now" thing.

So! Today I'm going to just give a quick update on my life and then move onward to some more recent things. It won't be quite as funny since my days as a toga-clad lady are over. *deep, sad sigh*

First off, as far as jobs, not much has changed. I work many shifts and still barely make enough because that's the nature of adulting. We have new people at both my work places though and it has been a frustrating time to say the least! They just don't know how to pick up speed with anything and I'm over in the corner like... trying not to want to kill them. Hopefully that clears up soon.

As far as friends, since it's now officially summer, I've seen more of my old buddies! I'm very happy about this, since I tend to feel lonely without my old group.

Family... well, same as usual. They miss me and I don't miss them a whole lot. That makes me sound like an ass but I've always been the detached one when it comes to family relations... sorry! It can also happen with friends, it's just not as frequent.

Then, there's my love life.
Let's just... take a moment to breathe. I have been so severely stressed about what the heck is happening between me and Patrick. He's seemed ok with me not seeing him as often and I was dying with loneliness and my anxiety was spiking. (Again, I should probably get my meds for that)
But, things seem to be going better. I don't want to make Patrick sound like some terrible guy because, he really isn't. He's very kind to me and treats me well. I just hope things keep going up instead of a slow slide downhill just because of personality differences. I've always been someone who would rather work out issues than give up.

On another note, Zayn and I are good friends again. (I am going to make this as un-weird as I possibly can)
I don't know if any of you remember me slightly mentioning Zayn a while back. Let's just say he read one of them... and it got really awkward for a while. But, moving past that, I'm just glad to have my friend back. He's just someone who... understands me, I guess. Again, trying to make this normal! Moving on so I can stop being an embarrassment to the human race.

I will be writing out movie/anime/TV show reviews soon and then making short videos on them as well. I don't know how long this will take since I do not have (nor can I afford) a laptop at the moment so editing is out of question. But when I do, I will be adding a link to the videos somewhere on my blog, so keep a look out!
The reason I want to do this is because 1) I love movies, 2) I love animation, and 3) every time I get on YouTube, I feel like there are no female reviewers (unless it's on things like makeup and skin care, which isn't bad but I want some new perspectives in film and shows).

That's all I will write for tonight and I will write some more hopefully later today! (Since it's nearly 1 in the morning for me right now)

Thanks for reading! I hope to stick around longer this time!

With Love,
Florence 🌻

The Stress is Too Real

Hello guys.

We are now down to the final countdown [insert music here] for my play.

Today was one of the hardest, longest days of my life.

I have been balancing on the edge of being sick for about a week now. It was worse today probably because my room was way too cold last night and because of, well, stress.

Let's just say, I nearly lost both my jobs today due to the scheduling of the play. I was a crying mess because, let's be honest, I don't have the TIME to find a new job within the next couple weeks.

I am quitting one of my jobs in about 4 weeks, I just can't be there anymore, but the other one said they would work something out for me and that everything would be fine. (Thank God)

I'm still stressed out because, duh, the play is next weekend and how is that all gonna play out (see what I did there? Eh, eh?).

That's all I can really say right now, but just keep me in your thoughts and prayers because I am beyond my emotional limits right now.

If any of you guys are as well, let me know; I'll send you some kind and encouraging words!

With Love,
Florence 🌻

Tattoos & Video Games

Good morning everyone!

I figured since I was really behind on blog posts, I'd spoil you guys with another one just several hours after my last one! Whaaaat?

Moving onto the topics at hand, let's begin with tattoos.

Last Monday, my best friend Jay-Z and I went to get tattoos as a late birthday present to her because we were both too busy on her actual birthday about a week and a half before. Needless to say, even though it was my second tattoo, I was still really super nervous. I hate needles, of any kind, and I'm not good with putting myself in pain on purpose. Can I handle totally buffing it off a bike and skinning my knees and elbows all to hell? Yes. Can I handle getting flu shots or tattoos? Nope. But I prefer tattoos, and I like tattoos, so I just deal with it.

I got a Kingdom Hearts tattoo (freaking surprise, like I'm not the nerd I am and like I don't have a tattoo in elvish across my shoulder, whatever) and my friend got the Simba that's drawn on the tree in the Lion King.

I found this kind of funny considering how it was my cousins first tattoo as well, but he got his like 4 and a half years ago.

Anyway, I was literally amazed at how well she did. Both of my tattoos were all tiny and only one had color but she went all in! Size, tons of shading and coloring, the whole shabang. I could only applaud her inwardly because man, she did way better than I would have!

After that whole endeavor, we went clothes shopping and went to a really cool reptile store and held a beautiful Bermese Python named Sheba. It was a fun time!

Now, onto video games.

As you can tell by my recent tattoo, my favorite game series probably ever is Kingdom Hearts. I refuse to sell my PS2 because that's how I play KH 1 & 2. Nearly 2 years ago, 2 years ago, us fans got a teaser trailer for KH3. And recently, the word is that it might be coming out in February next year.

Like we haven't waited long enough?! I mean, come on! Cut us some slack guys, I'm dying over here!

I can't say I'm joking too much, because I really do want the game. I'm to a point where I'll slap down all my cash for a PS4 and the pre-order of the game whenever they actually release it!

Are any of you guys into tattoos or video games? If so, tell me about it, I would love to see what we might have in common!

With Love,
Florence 🌻

Train-Stop Karaoke!

Have you guys ever had a song hit you so hard with nostalgia and soul and memories and shit that you just GO FOR IT? And I mean really go for it when you start singing?

Yea, that is EXACTLY what happened last week.

So there we were, me, Fergie, and Tay, driving home from practice. One again (this seems to have become quite normal for us now) we are having throwback jam sessions. Our Pandora station has been 2000s Hip Hop for about 3 weeks now. Do we have shame? Absolutely... not. In fact, it's our new favorite. Which, apparently, is a problem or even scary to some folk.

We pull up to this train stop and had to wait for about 10 minutes there. We are seriously singing and dancing out the car windows to, wait for it.....
Bye Bye Bye. An NSYNC* classic.

Y'all know it's goin' down.

Sure enough, we're getting it on with our skills and a van pulls up next to us. Keep in mind, we ALL have our windows down and we are ALL singing at the top of our lungs while dancing (which probably looked more like we were trying to shake bugs off our arms, legs, and hair, but who the heck cares!?).

We don't think too much of it at first as that one song ends. We know the van is there, we just don't really mind. Then, that one song comes on. No one can resist this song, at least for the first verse and chorus.
A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Carlton.

Oh yea baby!

So that's when we notice the hipster Jesus guy. Who is now hanging out the window of the van next to us with a look that can only be described as fear with a dash of possibly awe. Naturally, we all start cracking up, but we keep Jammin because, come on, it's THE SONG.

I kid you freakin' not, I swear I saw a camera flash. It was the most hilarious 10 minutes of my life at that train stop.

All I could say after we rolled our windows back up, crossed the tracks, and continued our drive home was, "Can you guys just imagine the story he's going to tell his friends and family?".

Anyway, what I want to say is, aside from this being absolutely hilarious (no, it seriously was, oh my god), is this:

Don't let fear of being judged stop you from doing something you love. I love my girls Tay and Fergie, and I love my road trips with them, especially when we're all singing our hearts and throats out like we were. I wasn't afraid of what the guy next to us thought because I was so in the moment. That's what life should be. It's hard not to worry, not to think "well shit, what am I even doing with my life" because EVERYONE has had those thoughts! But when you take life by moments like these, the kind that make you life, it makes it ok. Take baby steps, do what you love, and let your roads unfold. Be the one who freaks out hipster Jesus at a train-stop, make others around you question who you are and how you could be so fearless because you're just so in that moment.

Love you all, sorry that was so cheesy and inspirational and junk, but I hope you guys liked it!
Write again tomorrow!

With Love,
Florence 🌻

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Hello everyone!

It has been ages and ages and I'm so sorry! As you can tell by the title, it has been a crazy week; in fact, a crazy couple of weeks. Literally. Our play is next weekend, I am freaking out, ohmygod.

I kept telling myself I would write another post, but I just didn't get around to it! For now, how about I just post this tiny little apology and hope that you guys will still read my posts!

Love you all!
- F

On the Road Again! (Not Really Though...)

Hey guys! Florence here.

Sorry I've been so inactive! It's Spring Break and I've been so busy visiting people and doing other fun things (aside from work here and there) that I've totally not even thought about blogging!

I've decided that I want nicer, more my age clothes, so I'm selling old clothes! Already today I've made $80! I'm so happy, I can't wait to make a trip to this amazing store called the Basement Marketplace, they have the best clothes and great bras and underwear for pretty amazing prices!

I got to actually spend some time with Patrick (I've missed him so much, it was nice cuddling him and watching Chopped and Kitchen Nightmares) and I also got to hang with Tay! Fergie was away on a cruise, but I'm glad she had so much fun! I'm ready to be reunited with my gals.

That's all for now! Blog again soon!

With Love,
Florence 🌻

Part 2 of 4: Things That Make Me Happy

• Tay (friend)
• Jay-Z (friend)
• Fergie (friend)
• Patrick (boyfriend)
• Hayao Miyazaki Films
• Patrick's Artwork
• Books (of all sorts)
• Doctor Who
• Starkid Productions
• Clothes Straight From the Dryer
• Harmonizing While Singing w/Friends
• Kingdom Hearts
• Christmas Lights
• Elephants
• Dancing
• Soft Sheets
• Horses
• Geocaching
• Manga
• Anime
• The Cold Side of the Pillow
• Colorful Hair
• Singing Out of A Car Sunroof
• Long Drives w/Good Friends
• Disney

Everything's Going My Way

Hello there friends!

Today, Patrick's brother is getting married! It's pretty exciting.
(Well, technically he's been married for almost a year, but only on paper; they haven't had the actual ceremony fun part yet)

So, I'm gonna dress up and look hella cute and all that crap. Not really crap though because I'm actually pretty happy about it. :)

I also recieved my new bluetooth keyboard (since I don't have a working laptop) so that's what I'm typing on right now! Pretty fun stuff for me because, let's face it, who even likes writing entire blog posts on a tiny phone screen? Answer: no one that I know. I'm pretty sure everyone finds it annoying. Especially with my phone lately; it keeps making typos and not fixing when I spell a word with one wrong letter and it's just frustrating. Only downside to this keyboard so far is that my quotation marks still don't turn like they're "supposed" to. Ugh.

Anyway, things really do seem to be looking up for me. I've only been sad because some things I've been thinking about and considering for my life... well, the answers I know I need to follow are not exactly what I want to hear. At least, not for all of them. I won't go into too much detail, but I think I might be back to being single within the month if things don't work out the way I'd like them to. On the bright side, I'm pretty sure I'm going to the Disney Program in Florida with Tay and Fergie in the Fall of 2016. I think that will be a really cool and exciting and new experience and I don't want to pass it up out of fear. I'm going to look into it more today and see what exactly it's all about. I'm also going to focus on saving my money so I CAN go with them when the time comes. When I have that budgeted out, then I'll start saving for a car, then for my (hopefully) future, month long trip to New Zealand!

I would write more, but I gotta go shower and get ready for that wedding. It's in like an hour!

Write later!

With Love,
Florence

Good Ol' Frick-Frack Is Up to It Again

Hey there!
So!

As you all know from my second post ever about Frick-Frack, I cannot stand this person. It's getting tougher and tougher, I swear to GOD.

It's gotten so bad, like, I don't even hear the words coming out of her mouth when she's talking to me anymore and I always have to (sort of politely) ask her to repeat herself because I usually don't hear her the first or second time.

I was trying to find the freakin' nacho cheese and she, in all her attitude glory, told me they were on a shelf in the kitchen in a big box. Then she scoff-laughed. You know which one I'm talking about. The one where someone says something rude and then laughs at the end to try and soften the blow but it only comes out snottier.
Yea. That one.

Apparently, I seemed pretty irritated (because I WAS) because Audrey, my boss and sort of friend (?), followed me into the kitchen and was like "you can slap her if you want to". I started laughing because I didn't think it was so obvious! I mean, you would think if it was, she would take a damn hint!

Ugh. Frick-Frack is going to be the death of me.

Gotta go; have a book to read and a person to ignore while waiting for this movie to be over.

With Love,
Florence 🌻

Someday

Ok, so, this is going to be another kinda serious post, but hopefully it's the last one for a while!

Here goes...

Dear Father,

I've grown and learned so much. I bet I'm nothing like you thought I would be. Then again, considering how much I'm supposedly like you, maybe I'm exactly how you pictured me turning out.

I still have my birthmark. I was supposed to get it taken off because a lot of people thought I should, but I happen to like it quite a bit. I didn't used to, and for a while I thought it was cancerous, but it isn't so I get to keep it.

I have my own sense of style. I write poetry more than songs, but I do both. I'm kind of a hippie though, just like my mom back when you guys were closer, so I picked that up from her. (Save the trees! Hahah) I'm a pretty great artist, and have loads of potential, but my passion is in writing more than drawing. Oh, and in music! I've been playing the violin for about... oh my god. 10 years now! I'm not great because I don't practice too much, but I'm definitely not terrible! I was always second chair to one of my good friends. I was also in marching band and played in the Drumline. My first year, I surpassed some who had been there for 3 and then was a section leader alongside my good friend my second year (Senior Year). I want to learn to play the drums because of it; like, in a drumset.
I would also love to be in a band since I love to sing as well. Oh well, that's a far reach, but I can dream!

I have a lovely boyfriend of 2 years, but my first boyfriend ripped my heart to pieces and to this day, nearly all the poetry I write is laced with bits of him. It really sucked, but I'm happy now with Patrick.

I don't live with my mom and dad anymore, I live with a roommate in a little house and we get along alright. I'm just messy and forgetful and she's the opposite, but we do ok as roomies. :)

I heard you moved to Tucson. That's a bit scary, but also cool because, hopefully, I can finally meet you sometime soon. I'm thinking I'm going to wait until I'm 21 later on this year before I start planning that out. (Yea, I'm gonna be 21. Even I can't comprehend it!)

To be honest, when I was younger, I was sad and a bit pissed that I didn't know you. I felt left out because, even though my brother and sister's father was a piece of garbage to my mom and to all of us, my brother and sister had a dad. I was always the outcast and the one who had to be the adult. But, when my mom met my dad, Rickey, she was so happy! When I changed my last name, I was happy too because I finally had someone who could help raise me and be the person I needed them to be. Hell, same went for all of us.

I don't blame you for anything. In fact, now that I'm older, I actually commend you. Instead of being truly selfish and trying to stick around and keep me because you "have rights" to me, you decided to give me up because you knew that's what was best. I don't know if that's true, but it's what mom told me so I think it's safe to assume she's telling the truth.

So, thank you. I would love to get together with you and just see what you're like and how we're alike. Mom says I talk with my hands and facial expressions the same way you do. I find that kind of funny since I don't know you, but hey, genetics are strange!

Anyway. I hope you're doing well. Maybe I'll see you soon and maybe we can start some sort of friendship between one another. I'm not angry and I don't feel like you need to be completely out of my life. Maybe it'll be great and we can meet up once in a while and just talk. Maybe it'll all go downhill and we decide not to speak anymore. Who knows?! Only way to find out is to get together and have a nice chat over some coffee or tea in some sort of cafe where there's a live band or poetry slam of sorts! (There's really no other way to do it! Jk)

Regardless, I wish you all the best and look forward to meeting you someday soon.

With Love,
Florence 🌻

Part 1 of 4: Things That Make Me Happy

Autumn Temperatures
• Creek Trips
• Camping
• The Beach
• Concerts
• Snow
• Rain
• Clouds
• Music
• Broadway
• Playing My Violin
• My Rat, Hiyori
• My Brother and Sister
• Animals
• Horseback riding
• Finding New Places
• Writing
• Written Poetry
• Spoken Poetry
• Church Worship Services
• Boots for Adventuring
• Converse
• Soft Cotton Shirts
• Photography
• Tumblr

Twist, Twist, Twist, Twist, Quesadilla, Hot Sauce!

I tried to be clever by changing the words from Hairspray... if you caught that, kudos!

Today started so slowly at work, and I was sleepy most of the morning. This girl was up all night trying to fix a fancy new DVD/Blu-ray player with a 2007 flat screen that's already verging on death. Exaggeration? It really actually isnt.
My roommate, Carly Rae and I, spent close to 2 and a half hours working this stupid thing.
Did we get it to work? Yes. Would I do it again? Hell to the nah.

Back to today! Because of last night's dvd player endeavors, I was pretty sleepy this morning. So I get up and go to work and my best friend Jay-Z (who's actually a girl, but she said that's what she wanted to be called, so that's what she is) and I probably shouldn't work together! We get far too hyper and distracted and laugh at practically everything, but I don't care because I love her and she makes time go by a bit faster.

Later on, I actually got lucky enough to get off my shift early, so I go to my parents and get everything together, get gas, and head out to get Tay and Fergie.

Right off the bat, we're all in kinda "meh" moods. (I blame this on the weather which was gloomy today) Rainy days are usually my thing though, just people were being lame.
Lucky for me, I had a Playlist of the w975, which I reserve for road trips and cloudy/rainy days.

After we were all piled in, we drove the hour drive to our practice and we sang a bit, but mostly we talked. Tay and I were having some throwbacks, both good and bad, and just plain memories out into the cloudy skies, laughing and huffing and being the strange people we are! (Fergie was busy writing almost the whole way there, so she was shockingly quiet...)

We finally make it with 30 minutes to spare, so we head for a Taco Bell. What do we order? Cinnamon Twists, quesadillas, and (for me) a couple of soft tacos. The lady we spoke to and who took ou order was hella cool and didn't charge Tay for her cinnamon twists! But we were all laughing because I used a fake name for my order and then we were laughing because we're just dumb and Fergie was saying she was getting turned on by how Tay was eating her twists!
I also may have made a joke about entering Taylor because there's a city named Taylor that we passed into so... I was bad about that.
Then, Tay decided to be brave and try a twist with a little dab of mild taco bell sauce. Fergie and I totes thought she was crazy, but she dove right in!
Surprisingly, it's a pretty good combination! Almost like sweet and sour chip things or something like that...
Definitely give that a try next time you guys are at a Taco bell! It was pretty good!

We made it to practice a little late, but in the end, we had a fairly smooth run-through of both plays and got out of practice about 15 minutes early.

Have any of you guys ever tried a weird food or made a crude joke like we did? Comment below, I'd love to hear about them and have a few laughs!

I'll probably be writing again later today or tomorrow, so keep a look out!

With Love,
Florence 🌻